three weeks and four days to go....

with less than a month to go...

...more and more people are asking if i am excited. yes, i am excited about the time after the birthing part. lol..

till now, i am still not looking forward to the birthing part at all. wishing and praying very hard that somehow i can miraculously skip that part and to after birth.. anyway to get myself more prepare about what to expect, i have been reading about birthing stories.. after the first day of reading, i decided not to give birth anymore.. all the horror stories of the things that may go wrong! that really scares me..

this birth story is the worst - nella cordelia birth story. its my worst fear of what might happen, though the amniocentesis test came back ok.. but then again, recently a friend gave birth to a baby with extra fluid in the ventricles also and after much test, the baby has hearing problems (permanently or not, still not sure). so i guess i can never ease my mind till i see her. its not about the baby not being "perfect", its about my capability to help her live her life to the fullest which i am afraid i cannot fulfil.

anyway back to the birth stories. but it is also that birth story which kept me reading more - nella's story did not end at her birth. she continued to write and help raise awareness about the amazing abilities of individuals with Down syndrome (read more here) . she reminded me that birth is just the beginning, not the end. go read her blog here! its truly inspiring :)

and so i read more stories but am still scare..

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with less than a month to go...

... we finally have bought all the baby necessity! now left with the washing and setting up and storage part..

... mummy has started to wash and clean minibean's hand-me-downs.. =) her clothes are so small and cute! she is really lucky to have so many hand-me-downs and some of them are even brand new! thank you everyone!

... the hubs has also fix up the bassinette cot for minibean.. its the travel kind cus there arent much space left in the house.. hopefully she will be comfortable in there. cant wait to put her own elephant, monkey and rabbit inside.

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with less than a month to go...

we have finally narrow down the last character of her chinese name to four - xuan, ling, min & wei.. =)
so now we wait till she pops out and see what she look like and decides! sounds easy right! =P

and for her english name, we have picked out a few and the ones we like better are...

- abigail (my father's joy), i like the meaning of the name. the look on the hubs face every time he sees her on the ultrascan makes me 90% that this is the name for her.. the 10% is every time i think of the name, i think of the abigail. but looking on the bright side, there is a abigail sin who is a prodigy pianist! WOW!

danielle (God is my judge) - i really like this name too. my only concern is the 'elle' which makes its a little mouthful.. =S

hannah (grace of God)

roxanne (dawn) / rosanne (rose + full of grace) - i like the first and the hubs likes the spelling of the latter though the meaning of the names are different.

i have also been toying if the idea of naming her patience. i always thought i have a reasonable amount of patience but she really stretch that.

patience.. 

... to wait till the time of the month and the month after and month after... while sitting on the bowl for the line to appear. to wait for the first appointment. to see her (a dot) on the screen finally. to finally hear her heartbeat. for the first trimester to be over and my morning sickness to go away. for my bump to show. while waiting for my turn to see the dr at kkh which waits are ridiculously long. while waiting for the test results to come back. for the second trimester to be over so that we will be nearer to the 40 weeks. to know if the extra fluid in her brain would have any physical effect on her (dr says at this moment there is nothing they can do to see if she is really fine. i find this more hard to face than a baby with no name).. 

and now, patience for the 25 days to past which are passing at such a miserable slow rate... -_-"


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with less than a month to go...

we went for the 36th week scan last friday and she is 3.1 kg already! o.O