just a small action but it means so much.

earlier while i was making milk for the two little monsters. 

rosanne saw a few speckle of milk powder landing on the table top and she quickly took the table cloth from the table behind us to clean it up for me!

i am really surprised and touched that at her age, she is helping me to clean up without being asked.
it is no longer just taking her toy vacuum and pretend to clean the floor for me but a real cloth to wipe up my mess.

i think i now officially have one toddler less and a little girl more. T_____T 

#foodbaby

i wonder how a manager gets into a managerial post with no managerial skills or foresight.
i dont want to be like them. so this a reminder to myself, when i am there, that hopefully i wont be like them.


dear future me, 

if one day you are given the recognition to manage some unfortunate poor souls bright-eyes, please remember not to manage them like your own kids. 
but remember not to give up on them like how you are not going to ever give up on your own kids. 
you handpicked them and they accepted. 
if you are to give up on them so easily (like a month) then they will give up on you easily too. 
you need to give people second chance. of cus only to those who deserves it. 

you are also going to need a lot of foresight. 
you need it grow the team and each individual.
it is really sad to see potential people, working for managers who only see day-to-day, wonder around but never upwards. 

you also need to keep your "bias-ness" in check. 
i guess it is human that we have our favourites. 
you will like smart/intelligent people more than those whom you think are not.
you will also like people whom you know for a longer period than those you are not familiar with. 
there are also people whom you will tend to stereotype.
but just consistently remind and ask yourself if you are being fair/equal to all of them.

last of all, do not, DO NOT, turn an blind eye to mistakes of your favourite staff. 

one mistake will lead to another. and it will be a vicious cycle. 
covering up for them will not grow them but slow their growth cus they will never learn.

mistakes have the power to turn you into something better than you were before. -ANONYMOUS

good luck! 

love, 

me

not sure why i am being so affect by her passing - much more than i expected.

what her husband said during his eulogy is very true, she is very brave.

i dont think i knew anyone else who has cancer for 18 years and carried on living on her life to the best she can. 

***


牽我的手
詞曲: 林義忠


牽我的手，我的主啊，請祢麥離開我，
這條路 我擱要行，我需要 祢來作伴。

牽我的手，我的主啊，請祢麥離開我，
有時我會驚，有時不知按怎行，
有時敢若聽不著祢的聲。

牽我的手，請祢與我作伴，
互我的腳步又穩又定，
走到祢的門前，聽到祢的聲，
與我說：入來我的囝！

***

i will always remember your bravery and your trust in God.

That He will always be there and has his plans.

few nights ago, i hugged the girls goodnight.

琳 : mummy, i can smell you! your hair smells so nice!

thats like after a day at work.. sweat and hawker oily smoke.... yucks.
but it sure feels nice to hear nice about my hair.... =)

on saturday when the dodo came over, 琳 also asked her to smell my hair cus really smells nice... lol...


***

maybe she is trying to make me feel better about my hair.

last month at the kiwi's, once the rollers were off, 琳 screamed, 阿嬷!
T_______________T

and as if i didnt understand her, see, now you look like 阿嬷.
T______________________________T

when we were on the way home, she still would not let it rest... keep reminding to wash and comb my hair when we reached home later.
when at home she keep asking me why i havent go wash my hair and comb it.. she still ambushed me with a comb from the back while i was watching tv. 暄 also started to learn and ambushed me with her comb or anything that could comb my hair.. -_-"
and this lasted for a week before they both left my hair alone.... #saddestweekofmylife

i think now they are getting used to it.
琳 said it bounces and says it smells nice!
but well, i will now think twice when i am going to perm my hair the next time...
and also think of how to protect my curls from the two crazy monsters.. lol.

two nights ago, rosanne came out of her room after i tuck them both into bed..

me: what are doing out here?
ros: helping you to cover blanket. later you will be cold.


her random sweetness.

last night the older one begged me to sleep with them...

me : why?

r : cos no one take care of the kids....

me : what kids?

r : these two kids (point to herself and her sister)

-_-"

finally some sense.

saw this poster on the bus this morning.

remembered there was once, mummy, sis, baby and i took a bus back after grocery.
we load the pram with the heavy grocery.
i carried baby. we didnt have the baby carrier out with us that day cus we took the stroller.
mummy and sis carried the pram on the bus and the bus driver started to yelled at us to close the pram.

we told him we dont have any more extra pairs of hands for the the groceries if we close the pram -we still each have grocery bags in our hands and not to mention we bought rice too.

he didnt really care and just sat in his kingly driver seat and yelled at us. refusing to start the bus until we close the pram.

at that point i really want to get off the bus.
i mean he could have helped us right?

he was also accusing us taking up lots of space with the open stroller.
but when we took the groceries out, we took up even more space cus we cant stack the groceries much on air.

we are not blocking anybody on the bus. the bus was the type with lots of standing area.
the pram is not huge and we are using it like a trolley market basket standing at the side of the bus.
since when do people need to unload the groceries from the trolley basket to board the bus?
trolley basket dont even have wheel locks. isnt that also dangerous?


from then, i just take the lrt.
yes, lrt is an alternative.
but what is the purpose of public bus if the public cant take it?

anyway, just glad that there is still some sense left and i am not the only person having trouble with prams and bus.

I want to be around people that 

do things.

I don’t want to be around people anymore that 

judge or talk about what people do.

I want to be around people that 

dream and support and do things.

Amy Poehler

"you just now says turn left, now (you says) turn right. Say sorry!"

an interesting conversation between the little girl and google map.

225cal, 3.2km, 24.08mins

the little girl asked for her blanket before she went to bed.
she had a little accident yesterday afternoon and her grandma took it for a wash.
it was hanging out to dry and so i told her that i will go checked if it is dry.

without missing a beat, she confidently said, the sun came out today, right?

lol.. sun = dry. so smart.
-_-"

161cal, 2.63km, 25.00mins

morning, my dusty blog...
so hook onto this song!


[Goblin OST] 에디킴 (Eddy Kim) - 이쁘다니까 (You Are So Beautiful) Piano Cover

my little abby can walk!
apparently, my mummy says she was already walking 1-2 steps on her own the past few days.
but i did not seen them so not counted.
so today during dinner, i was at the sofa and i saw her walking from her kids table to me UNAIDED!
good job abby!

no time for a long post but just want to write it down somewhere before i forget.
cus abby will probably grow up and later see all the post i wrote for ros but she only has a few.. =(

but abby, mummy still loves you just as much okie!


#12mths11days