Disappointment.

Thankew for not disappointing me.

Again and again.

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Its been such a long time. And yet the time is still not enough for you to realise what you have done.

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I am not going close you, not because i did anything wrong or feeling too shameful to see you. Its that i do not want to get hurt by you again. But i am wrong. You still found ways to hurt me.

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After helping you again and again, all i got was "she betrayed me".

I told you things that i should not know to help you and told you to keep it to yourself. But you went tell them.

Do not tell you me you rephrased your question or left my name out because i heard it with my own ears.

We were going "transparent" that day, me and her. We were beside each other all the while, except the time when i was telling you the little secret. Purpose was not to have unnecessary misunderstandings within me and her, not to trap you.

But that day, i caught you instead - your words with my own ears.

I gave you a chance to explain yourself. I asked you what did you say to her. You LIED through your teeth. Then i asked again. You LIED again.

Do you know how sad and hurt i was that i was afraid of myself? I was afraid that i would hurt you back. Do you know how trapped i felt with my own feelings that i cried every now and then?

I was so glad when the exams were over. I felt freed. No more obligations.

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Even after you lied, you said i was your friend.

Do friends lie to each other?

You called me up when you were left all alone outside. You told me about the problems and fears you had. I sincerely hear you out and patiently calmed you down.

And where were you when i was all alone?

Did you even remember me?

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When my family came, i then realised how much stuffs you have been talking to your mum about - even those that you are not supposed.

I also realised why you asked me that question out of the blue.

That was the last straw. You did not only hurt me but you hurt my family too. I could not trust you.

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And today, i officially have a spastic smile.

When are you going to stop?




joop chun.

Happy Lunar New Year!

CNY - Day 1

New tops! New pants! New bag! New shoes! New panties!

Woah! I am a happy girl!

family.

favourite photo of the day.

CNY - Day 2

Many many photos!

I am a happy happy girl!

though a bit dark, my favourite photo of the day.

ohana.

smile!

joop chun.

happy piggy year!

A Walk Back to School.

Received a call from tigress about a pre-cny visit to cchs days ago. As it is a weekday, not much of people were able to make it. In the end only tigress, jacky, obasan and ojisan (me!) were able to meet up. Nevertheless, we still had much fun. =)

Not sure whether is it the scorching sun or is it that it has been a while since i last walked to cchs, the road seems so never ending. While i was already on the verge of calling for taxi, some could still pose for the camera.


After walking and walking and more walking, we finally reached the teacher's common room. Look, who we found... ...

aint she cute and lovely? =)

Another group photo with our favourite accounts teacher. Till this day, i am still very grateful to her for the wake up call.

"PeiEn Xiao-Jie", she called out in her sarcastic tone, "if you still not waking up, i am going to call your parents."

Grades falling from first in level till needing remedial class, no wonder she was waking me up one hot afternoon during accounts class when she caught me nodding off. But if not for that, i would never had gotten distinction for accounts or be where i am today. =)

Both teachers had to attend a meeting so we went for lunch. Most of the stalls have changed owners. We could only identify two of the stalls. The bar code-uncle is gone and the japanese stall is now the most popular.

obasan : erm.. can this sickly looking noodles be eaten?

obasan : ... taste the soup too..

obasan : hehehe.. its NICE!

After lunch, we went to visit our classroom. Diligence is now the class next door and harmony is using the class. We were all pretty excited to be back in the class that we posed..


and posed..

and posed..

and posed..

and posed..

till we almost ran out of poses..

just few more poses..



I think jacky is feeling high that he is back. He feels like flying..


Last destination - the Lake

Scenery around is pretty much the same as we had left it.

photography contest.

More poses of us at the Lake..

way to go obasan!! kick him in!!

Us with the Lake.

Last shot of the day.

And we all went to marine parade.. just like we used to do. =)




joop chun.

Random Thoughts of a Day.

i think i am getting"denser" by the day. probably is the result of hanging around that vain princess too much. this is one show so far in my life that i could not understand!! i can see that the four groups of people are linked to each other in a way or another.. but i still have no idea what the main point of the movie!! linked and then?! ARGH!!!

*conducting web search..*

according to webmovie.. the characters in the the movie are "tied by circumstance but separated by continent, culture and language, then discovers that it is family that ultimately provides solace."

ORH! no wonder... i see it now..

*light bulb lightens up*


We talk about the border as a place only, instead of an idea. I believe that the real borders are the ones that exist within us. - Alejandro González Iñárritu

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pregnant ladies: please dont eat turkey.

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He never said you only see sunshine,
He never said there would be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain.

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他现在这样子, 真让人心酸.
周围爱他的人, 也无能为力.
这是他的选择, 这就是他的命.

人真的不能走错一步.

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time to remove the old coat of nail polish and put on a new one.

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thanks a million JT!! =)

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why are some older siblings so selfish?
why do they seemed that they only think for themselves?
dont they care about their younger siblings?

am i one of the selfish one too?

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to launch or not to launch.

whatever the decision will be...

i'll be there for you.

joop chun, 小黑.