👧🏻: papa, I tell you a secret ok?

👦🏻: yes? 

👧🏻: i very hungry....

me: rosanne, do you have a boyfriend?

her: i have friends..

and so this little girl can say sign sorry!

last night, she was caught doing something she wasnt supposed to do.
i scooped her up and while walking towards the room, to give her a bath, i asked her if she was supposed to play with mummy's things.

she lowered her head and gave me the super guilty look. then...

she raised her right hand to above the right eye and sign sorry!! 

#275days

still feeling sore her best friend bit her, she would never fail to remind us that everytime she hears a word that sound like "yang" and "bite". even the word "eat" was a trigger. 

so at bedtime, many few days ago, we tried to explain to her forgive. we told her that when her friends had apologised, she should say, it's okie. or anything which would show she forgives. after much prep talk, she seems more ready to let go. 

so the hubs ask her what should she tell her classmate tomorrow at school?

i love you! 

***

two nights ago, she had a little accident and peed on my bed while sleeping. 

so yesterday, after returning from work at home, i asked if i could sleep in her bed cus all the bedding are still hanging out to dry. 

you don't poo poo in my bed ok?

ok.

you don't pee pee in my bed ok? 

ok.

YAY! 

-_-"

***

last night in bed, the little girl was complaining of a stomache and she needs to eat a chicken' baby.

what's that? 

egg.

we were on our way home in the car earlier.

rosanne felt her own kneecap for the first time and exclaimed loudly, there is a ball!

oh, how did a ball get in there?

i eat a ball...

me: rosanne stop playing with the phone.

ros: 我要听话!

-_-" 

oh dear she cannot differentiate between 听电话 and 听话!





#34mths4days

new heights!

abby can now see higher because she can stand! she will use whatever that is around her to pull herself up to standing position! YAY!

#7months7days

out grows the teeth and so now we can have porridge!

abby's first proper solid food meal - pumpkin porridge.

#7months2daysold

abby has teeth!
but she would not let us see it.. =(

her tongue blocks it EVERY TIME we press down her lower lips.

anyway she is 6mths 27days old today. =)

time to ditch the floats!!

the hubs was beaming 2 weeks ago after their weekly pool session.
he proudly announced that, eh, rosanne can swim already leh.
and didnt even wait for me to reply and he repeated it again.

oh, ok. i said skeptically

can swim? really meh? with floats issit? a thousand and one questions was flashing through my mind.
since then, the hubs have been bugging me to bring abbs down for a swim together with them so that we can see rosanne swim.so after a long wait for the appropriate weather, swimming we went earlier this morning.

at first, she was pretty shy when her papa asked her to swim for me to see..

she kept asking the hubs to hold her then asked me to hold her.
after almost 20mins of warm up, she suddenly announced, papa i swim ok?

so from one end of the small jacuzzi pool, she swam 2 strokes on her own before her papa caught hold of her. she swam that two little stroke without aid. YAY! #proudmama

then 2 strokes became 3 then 4. and after she just could not stop swimming to and fro her papa and i in that little pool :)


today, she is 32 months 22 days. 

apparently, this happens everyday after school. -_-"

the most chim question rosanne has asked - who make car? 

last night the little girl pinched my muffin top and said, fat fat right?

T__________T

ok lor.
fat means fat.she is not wrong.
then she proceed to say it looks like fish ball...

T_______________T

i think this is due to her dodo yiyi calling abby's cheeks fishballs.
she then told me she will try to help me to squeeze it back cus its falling out of the pants. but with no avail.
mummy spoil already, she concluded, pointing to my fishball fatty tummy

T____________________T

CA-LER-POLD!

that is the name the big little girl gave eric carle's very hungry caterpillar.
and when we ask her why?
she says, caterpillar got hole.
and she proceeds to show the holes calerpold made in her book.
lol.

*** 

last night, she shouted excitedly, calerpold lights! calerpold lights!

so her dad and i took a look at what she is pointed at outside the window.
ooohhhh, its the neighbours' hari raya light decorations that they had just put outside their window.
they do look like calerpold - red, green and orange.

this girl's imagination never fail to surprise me.

*** 

“Logic will get you from A to Z;

imagination will get you everywhere.”

- Albert Einstein

i am now lying on the far end of our king sized bed where rosanne has just banished me to.. T.T

just last night, she wanted me to lie right beside her and hug her to sleep. but tonight when i asked her if she wants me to sleep with her, she said yes and pointed to my pillow on the other side of the bed...

don't you want mama to pat you to sleep?
there is no space already!


T___________T

but there is only two little people and one slightly fat mama on my bed where got no space!!

i am amazed with my little girl.

on sunday, the hubs and i were discussing about going to fly kite at the park.
the hubs mention that there is no wind.
the little girl overheard, pointed to the curtains and said, "i see wind!"

before we leave the house, the hubs asked me again, you sure you want to go? there is no wind today..
"i saw wind i saw wind!" -_-"

not sure if her see and saw was just a coincidence.. lol

anyway some pictures from their kite flying...

carrying the tails of the kite - the most important job.

lol.

a brief moment the kite was up.

happy abby smiling and laughing

***

last night she called her daddy on the phone.

little girl: i want air-con
lehubs: huh?
little girl: i want air-con
lehubs: is it very hot today?
little girl: i NEED air-con..

-_-" seriously, where did she learn all these stuff...

today is just not my day. its barely 9 and i cant wait for my day to end.

first my phone decided to drown itself in the sink.
the bathroom sink has not been fixed and water drains out slowwwwllllyyyyy..

at work, my colleagues suggest to dry it with the hand dryer.
ok, lets try..
the hand dryer then blows out weird black pieces of stuff..
so i took a peek.
its a dead dry lizard.

here only have one toilet meh?

no.

still have another ladies at the front of the building and a handicap toilet.

and both the hand dryers are not working............

our names according to the little girl. 

妹妹 : ah gail 

papa : jk darling 

mama : angry darling

we left sg and kids for bkk this morning..

picture looks happy only.. lol.
actually i am quite sad to leave the kids at home. sadder than i thought i would be.. :(
seeing other little kids running at the airport makes me wonder why did i not bring my kids along too!!
and kept thinking of going home to see my happy little people.. T__________T
so Bangkok, you better be good to me.. hahaha.

see my happy little people sooo cute right!

***

photo of the milk i am going to dump. 

really really 不捨得.

#byebyemilk #milkrich

*update: in the end, the hubs used the 500ml of milk i was going to throw for foot bath. lol.

took the little girl out for a date after her school.
i noticed both her hands were in a pinching pose.
so i asked her what is she holding.

"cho-late"
"oohhh.. can i have some?"
she hesitated awhile. so i said i cant hold her if she is holding onto her "cho-late".
"nah, feed feed.."

*satisfied tummy.

her hands still clenched cus i only ate chocolate from one hand. 

hands are both cupped. 

i think her chocolates multiplied.

there are still chocolates to offer me at bedtime.

***

at the end of our little date, i told my little girl that i will be going back to work tomorrow.
reminded her to be good and listen to her 婆婆.
reassured her that i will miss her and promised to have little dates with her every now and then.

"so where is mummy going tomorrow?"
"eh.. toilet..."

my little girl wished me, happy mama's day, on her own this morning! so sweet :)

happy mother's day to all mummies!

***

taken on my first mother's day in 2014. 

and the last one with her. 

missing her as much as the first day.

i was teaching the little girl to ask for things instead of whining.
so i made her repeat after me.

me: i
ros: i
me: want
ros: wan
me: to
ros: three!

probably her "want" was "one" but i never notice..
-_-"

i taught the little girl that she has to wash up after coming back from school before she could have her milk.

i think she was too hungry and tired.

after making her milk i found her like that. minus the milk bottle.

for some reason, abby was so sleepy that day she hardly ate.
i remembered that when it happened with rosanne, i would get so worried.
i would check with my best friend, google, forcing coaxing her to drink. but she being very stubborn, would not even open her mouth at all. its will be clammed tight.
it sounds funny now that a newborn can keep her mouth shut so tightly.. lol.

now with slightly more experience, i am more relaxed about it.
maybe too relaxed. lol.

anyway, abby feeds better than rosanne. =)
abby wont sleep until she is full.
rosanne will sleep until she is famished.

two little girls, same same but so different. =)

was talking to the big little girl and I forgot what I my sentence half way through.. and she impatiently asked, what what?

okie.. so now I know she does understand what I am saying actually and probably just acting blur when I gave her instructions that she doesn't like.. lol.. 

though i do not remember the details, but when i was probably about three, a cab driver commented that she 很年轻, 看起来好像你们的姐姐 (referring to my aunt & mummy who were in the cab). he added that she does not look like someone who was in her fifties. that moment, i understood the word "爱美" and she taught me how.

she taught me that girls should always sit properly and we should always look neat and tidy. she would wipe me down and powder me to make sure i am clean and mummy can smell me from miles away when she picks me up after work.

every morning, she would doll herself up before she goes to meet the world - her family. if i reached her house early enough, i will get to watch her put on her make up meticulously; not a hair would be out of place. whether she is going to the market or just working on her garden, she made sure everyone sees her neat and clean. one day, mummy and i dropped by her house during a weekday and caught her on the way to the hairdresser. only that once, i saw her with her "original" hairstyle. when she grew weaker and was unable to make trips to the hair salon, my aunt would get a hairdresser to come over to do her hair for her and that made her very happy. that made us happy too, because she would only take photos with us if she thinks she looks good :)

every reunion dinner, my grandpa (when he was still alive), uncles, male cousins & male cousin-in-laws would eat first as the table would not fit the whole family. followed by any leftover male members and female cousins. then followed by aunties and herself who are always the last. she showed me the expectations of being a wife - to put my husband before myself.

on weekends, whenever someone bought snacks or tea back, she would instruct us to offer first to grandpa and uncles. and if any elders are too busy to eat at that moment, we have to leave some for them too. she showed me how to respect my elders.

the biggest lesson she taught me was love. she loved and dote on every one of us unconditionally.

when i was growing up, i would snitch food while she was cooking lunch. she would tell me off saying that it is rude and unhygienic. but after a few times of unheard advices, she scooped some out and let me officially snitch some food when she was cooking.

when i went overseas to study, i asked her to teach me how to pick fresh food from the market. she laughed at me and said all the food over there is very fresh, no need to pick.. lol. she was more well-travelled than me..

when i was dating, she would often call mummy to ask if i had gotten married. and mummy would say no. then she would ask if i had secretly gotten married without telling her. again no. then she would tell mummy that it's not good for a girl to be dating for so long without getting married
:(

when i told her i was getting married, she was so happy and i still can remember that smile on her face. but when i told her that i was going to live with the hubs for a while she was concerned. she asked why. she told me to respect my in laws and told me not to hide in the room every day when i reach home. (i think she knows me so well even though we don't live together.) she told to me to interact with my in laws after dinner and be good. if they have guests at home, i would have to help entertain them too.
when i was pregnant with a girl, she asked if my in-laws would mind that she was not a boy. when i was pregnant with another girl, she suggested i must try again for a boy so that my in-laws would love me and 有地位.

when rosanne visits her, she would affectionately calls her 小小豬. till her last days, she would still response to the name 小小豬.

i will remember the way she feeds me - cooling the food in her mouth with spoon and then feeding it to me.

i will also remember she telling me not to stand behind a mini bus exhaust, otherwise when the vehicle starts, i will become black black.

she, is my grandma.
the grandma, i loved the most.
the strongest & determined woman i ever met.

***

i knew it was bad news when i heard my aunt's croaky voice over the phone asking for my mummy. and when mummy told me the news after she hanged up, my heart broke but kinda felt prepared for the news.

shortly after aunt kim passed on last year, someone came in my dream and told me that i will be losing two grandmas (loved ones) that year. maybe the person meant in a year? the dream was weird - no picture no nothing. was just a female on my left with her face facing away from me - not the usual type of dream i have. it was a short dream and i woke up immediately. it bugged me. i told the dodo about it later so that the dream will not come true (some silly thoughts we had).

we made effort to visit the grandmas often. last aug, the hubs grandma passed on and with the year end approaching, i was apprehensive about my dream. but i guess telling a dream in hopes that it wont come true does not work.

goodbye 阿嬷. will remember and love you till the end of my time.

the maturity of rosanne makes me so proud of her but at the same time i feel so sad..

last monday was the day we got discharged from the hospital. she came home after school and saw meimei in her spot on our bed. she has this lost look on her face. i quickly asked her if she would like to come join us and carry meimei. a smile broke on her face and she was visibly very excited.
over the next few days, the hubs and i were careful to make sure she does not feel left out.

the favourite question people like to ask this time round is, is she jealous of meimei. well the answer is no. :)
she feels meimei belongs to her solely and should be the only one carrying her.. hahaha..

and when asked if she like meimei, her replies so far has been a clear YES!
hopefully it stays this way for a long long time.. hehehe..

last week when she was lying in bed, she saw her daddy carrying meimei to her bed. she asked her daddy to place meimei with her instead and so the hubs did what she requested. after placing meimei beside her, she kept sayanging and kissing meimei. so much love this little girl. #heartineyes

we asked her if she could share her duffy with her. without hesitating, she placed duffy on top of meimei. she then quickly ran to meimei's bed and fetch her giraffe & elephant. the problem we had was to convince her to let meimei sleep in her own bed.. lol.. after much coaxing, she finally allowed meimei to return to her bed.. i later found rosanne asleep in our bed and asked the hubs what happened.
she wanted to sleep with meimei. :)


last night, rosanne was having a really bad cough which woke her up.
i went in with warm water to help her ease the cough. while i was coaxing her back to sleep, meimei started to cry. i had no choice but to tell her that i have to attend to her crying sister and would be back after meimei has fallen asleep. she nodded her head and gave me a tight hug.
then my heart broke - she doesnt usually give out hugs without being asked. T.T
i could see that she really wanted me to stay and accompany her but choose to say nothing.


***


dear rosanne, 

thank you for being such a lovely big sister.
i think you are better at it than me.
i am so proud of you and i love you.

love, 
mama.

someone is having a crash course on how to wrap a newborn.. 

lol.

still waiting..

its 8am and i am still waiting.
have been here since 11 last night.
getting a little anxious and worried.
wondering why am i here.. again.
after the last time, i was so sure i will not be doing any more via natural.sigh.
but so far everything is good.
came in with a 3cm dilation and it has progress to 4cm on its own.
dr kenneth is coming ard again at 11 later.
hopefully by then there will be more progress :)
getting a little excited to see how my little baby will look like!


any way i think some doctor just whistle a hymn along the corridor and i am reminded that everything is in His hands.
i just need to pray and trust that He will bring us safely though this. :)

***

Turn your eyes upon Jesus | Helen Howarth Lemmel
O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free.

Chorus:
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

Through death into life everlasting He passed,
and we follow Him there;
O’er us sin no more hath dominion
For more than conqu’rors we are!

His Word shall not fail you, He promised;
Believe Him and all will be well;
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell!

“What's in a name? that which we call a rose

By any other name would smell as sweet.”

William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet

i think we have decided the last character of #小小楊貝貝 chinese name - 暄.

which according to google translator, means genial.
and genial means:

baby, hope you grow up friendly and cheerful :)

ok.. now to find the english name, with 10 days left....


names top on his list are:

abby - my father's joy. but i really think this is more suitable for firstborn and if really this name is chosen, i would rather have abigail. meaning of names is important but i feel the form of it is also important. i would not want people to think her parents are lazy and hence the short form of it. maybe i am thinking too much. lol.

ashley - dweller near the ash tree meadow. i really do not like this name for my little girl since i already have a male friend with this name. but that day on tv, one of the character was named "ashleigh" which i think is nice. again, the meaning of the name is not very meaningful.

emma - universal.

amelia - work. we actually like this name just that we are not sure if we like that meaning of the name....

phoebe - radiant, shining one. we probably will go with this if i did not have a geography teacher who liked to sit on table with her leg hair of a male for all to see by the name of phoebe. i am scarred.


names top on my list are:

sophia / sophie - wisdom.

ophelia - helper.

daphne - laurel tree, bay tree

madeline - woman from magdala; high tower

sylvia - from the forest


hopefully the hubs and i can find a name that we both can agree on soon...
argh.. but it is so hard!

i just lost the mp.

now what?

probably the first and last photo of my baby bump #2. 

13 days, maximum, to see baby!