just finished feeding the little girl.. watching her making funny faces and noises while sleeping. its harder to burp her at night because she always fall asleep right after she is done.. so i will let her sleep in a upright position against my chest for 20-30 mins (some times longer when I fall asleep with her till her next feed.. hehehe) and put her in bed..

#themostblessedmoment

so fast and she will be going to be seven weeks old already! still feel like the first month except her weight is not.. lol..

its really daunting being a first time mom.. many people will be sharing their experiences and making me feel that i should do what they say.. but i am reminded by a nice papa of 3, that..

... every kid is different, dont fret.

so nowadays i ask myself first if that is what i want and keep calm if it does not work.. especially about making rosanne sleep through the night. some tell me that i should keep her awake during the day, while some says i should reduce her feeding from 5pm onwards so that she will keep waking up thus tired and will sleep through the night later..

well.. these are not going to work for my baby.. there was once she would not sleep in the day and was awake from about 5 in the evening till about 10 at night.. and then, she had a meltdown.. she cried non-stop and even when she fell asleep, she only slept for like 10-30 minutes. this continued till like 1am. poor girl.

reduce feeding quantity will also not work because she is a tiam jiak gui, like me! she will cry if there is no more food and she is still not satisfied.

so i asked myself why do i want her sleep through the night.. for me or for her? she is getting more "stable" nowadays, having feeds only 1-2 feeds at night. she eats lesser at night also, so a night feed takes about 30 minutes only. and the best thing? she falls back to sleep on her own!

so is it for me then? truth to be told, i want her to wake up for her feed at night. it was tiring at the beginning. she wakes up every 1-2 hours at night wanting to be carried, nursed, feed, changed and all sorts of other reasons. that was really tiring. but ever since she starts to wakes up only once or twice at night, it was more bearable and i enjoyed watching her feed and falling asleep refusing to be burp.. and since i cant be a SAHM, soon i will get to spend very little time with her. =( so every moment spend with her is very precious.

i believe that when she is older, her body allow her to sleep through the night. =)
so at the mean time, i am just going to enjoy myself.

***

my confinement is officially over today! YAY!
yummy food here i come!

jelly: finally you can have normal people food.
me: what do you mean by normal food?
jelly: normal people dont eat food with a lot of ginger...

***

seriously i dont know what she saw.. 

the crying baby is back! hahaha.. 

merry xmas everyone!

i think all mummies should go for post natal massage!! even if one dont believe about water and wind retention, they should still go for one!

it helps to relax the body. i didnt even how tired my back was till auntie suriati, the massage lady, started massaging me yesterday. after the session, my whole body felt so much lighter.

i just weigh myself earlier and i lost one kg after 2 sessions and my tight gap is back in town! yipee! btw, lots of people have been commenting that i lost A LOT of weight. truth be told, i hardly lose any after the first week. so 1kg in two days is really something. =)

***

anyway my little 琳 has been really smiley today.

happy after her diaper change with 婆婆 and 二姨 to entertain her. 

just taken by her 婆婆 few minutes ago after her feed.

just a short post before the baby wakes up...

quite busy lately especially now that i can go out walk walk.. =)

rosanne is becoming more active and have started to communicate with us with her gurgles baby language. she also has learnt to seek attention! i wonder who she learnt that from.. lol.

***

some photos we took yesterday.. =)

me and my fatty-bon-bon.. =)

the hubs and the little girl.

and i really think i suck at taking photo.. *bleah

i like the feel of the photo. 

though both of them are not looking at the camera and she looks like she is balding.. hehehe.. 

hello bare legs! 

i miss you! 30 days no see me, miss me?

hahahaha...

so fast 30 days just zoomed past and my confinement period is semi-over! just 10 more days of ginger food but what is ginger food compared to no shower, wearing long pants&sock 24/7 and no fan in the hot singapore climate!

its pure torture i tell you... especially the first two weeks.

i now realised how women lose weight post pregnancy.. sweat, pee and more SWEAT! i sweat like crazy in the first two weeks. dont move also will sweat.. and for the first week, mummy says no shower at all!? uber disgusting lor.. every time i bf her in the first week, my heart goes out to her.. so smelly!

i loss about 11kg in the first week - baby and water weight. =)
after that, i only loss 2kg.. 6kg more to my idea weight.
actually i am not obsessed with losing weight. i am more concern about my bulging tummy... if it can go away before the cny i would be more than happy. why? cus i will have more clothes to wear! i still can hardly fit into my pre-pregnancy pants... =(

***

the weighing machine has arrived! 

so we weigh her and she is now 4.5kg! YAY! 

did some calculations.... 

dr rhonda says that rosanne should have 150 times of her weight of milk. 

so if she is 4.5 and 150 times of that would be 675ml of milk in 24 hours. 

and if she have 8 feeds per day, she should be drinking about 80-90ml per feed?

but she is having 120ml per feed nowadays and definitely more than 8 times per day... o.O

am i feeding her too much?

wanted to take photos of her in her pretty clothes which she is outgrowing them so fast..

took her in the panda oneies above and after one shot, she puke and then no more photo... 

=(

and i particularly like her in the below onesie... but she outgrew it too! =(

at 9 days old.

doesnt she look handsome in it?

yah handsome. =)

my happy baby. =)

another week had passed! and next week it would be a month already. thats fast!

this week, rosanne seems to sleep more at night. waking up only 1-2 times at night for feed. =)
but it is getting harder to make her go sleep nowadays. she gets cranky when sleepy and will not stop crying/wailing (depending how tired she is) until she find a nice position/spot to fall asleep. some times she wants to be pat to sleep, some times she wants to be a big girl and falls asleep on her own. lol

anyway this week i have trying hard to grow her cheeks but its so hard!

look at her fatty cheeks on day zero!

her cheeks yesterday. 

SHRUNK! =(

okie fine, other than fattening her cheeks for my kissing and pinching pleasure... its an indication if she is getting enough food. weighing machine is still on the way. lol.. anyway, i really dont mind she her being fat fat now cus baby gets sick often and would loose weight later. so now store up the fats first, otherwise later become skin and bones.. hehehe

anyway, just to make myself feel accomplished about fatten the cow her, she is growing out clothes! compare her wearing the rainbow onesies above (day 22) and the one below at day 5...

sexy shoulder showing.. hahaha...

anyway, she is getting less erratic, or should i say more predictable.. lol... feeds every 2-3 hours compared to the first two weeks where she sleeps for hours and refuse to feed. making me so worried.

i lately notice that she has this odd feed at 11pm. she will want to feed even though she just had her milk an hour ago.. the first time it happened when she was already 120ml and an hour later she wants to be fed again!? we tried not feeding her but she kept waking up and crying.. so she won and slept till 4am for her next feed! i then thought it was just a growth spurt but it keeps happening! o.O

she is also getting more "responsive" by the day. she seems to know what we are talking to her and she would sometimes reply with her gurgles that probably meant "keep quiet!" lol

***

anyway we will be having her red egg and ginger party tomorrow! so excited! =)
hopefully she will be 乖乖 and open her eyes more often. hahaha...

a sneak peek!

her shoes are finally ready! =)

after years of talking about it.. i finally made TIRAMISU! okie is we.. cctk, jelly and the dodo did most of the hard work and i only put the cherry on the icing. hehehe...

its really easy...

Ingredients
9 teaspoons instant espresso powder dissolved in 350ml / 1½ cups water (cooled)
250 ml baileys
400 grams savoiardi biscuits
2 large eggs
75 grams caster sugar
500 grams mascarpone cheese
2 ½ teaspoons cocoa powder


Method 

1. Mix the coffee with 175ml / ¾ cup of the Baileys in a shallow bowl. Dip the biscuits into this liquid; let them soak on each side enough to become damp but not soggy. Line the bottom of a 22cm / 8½ inch square glass dish with a layer of biscuits. 
2. Separate the eggs, but keep only one of the whites. Whisk the two yolks and the sugar together until thick and a paler yellow, then fold in the remaining 75ml / ¼ cup of Baileys, and the mascarpone to make a moussy mixture. 
3. Whisk the single egg white until thick and frothy; you can do this by hand with such a little amount. Fold the egg white into the yolky mascarpone, and then spread half of this mixture on top of the layer of biscuits. 
4. Repeat with another layer of soaked Savoiardi, and then top with the remaining mascarpone mixture. 
5. Cover the dish with clingfilm and leave in the fridge overnight. When you are ready to serve, push the cocoa powder through a small tea strainer to dust the top of the tiramisu.

recipe taken from - http://www.nigella.com/recipes/view/irish-cream-tiramisu-5.

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the factor that gave me the extra push to do the tiramisu - BAILEYS!

she finally has a name...

so we went to register her birth yesterday and got her legalised!

rosanne - rose + full of grace

zhi (智) - wisdom, knowledge.

lin (琳) - fine jade, gem. yes, she is my 寶貝.

***

some mummy & sleepy baby photos while we wait for her daddy in the car. =)

i just cant stop smelling her though she not longer smell like at day 1 & 2. 

i am like a glue sniffer but addicted to her smell.

her 洋蔥頭 makes my nose itchy!

see her sleep, i also want to sleep.

***

we have also received the baby bump photos from pierre and here are my favorite!

***

the hubs just got himself a new toy and was using the little girl as his model while i napped..

i just love her eyes. so big and shiny.

remembered the first time in the middle of the night when they carried her to me for her feed and she looked at me with those soul piercing eyes. it seems that we have known each other for an eternity. 

the first few days of her life, she spend so much time sleeping that every time she open her eyes, i will whip out a camera and take multiple shots of her like taking photo of a yeti. lol..

nowadays she spend longer hours awake and i can slowly take nicer photos of her..

but baby, please keep your eyes closed from 0100 to 0500 daily... 

OMG! its friday already??

time really flies and my baby is 14 days old already!

***

anyway, i realised that mummies are worry tarts - they worry ALL THE TIME.


when baby sleeping soundly, she wonders if baby has enough milk and should she wake the baby up for her feed. *paused and checked if baby is still breathing or have fainted from hunger.

when the baby does not sleep, she panics why baby isnt sleeping. is baby having enough sleep? is that eye bags coming out? did she get skinnier?

when baby drinks lesser milk than usual, she frets and thinks of ways to make the baby finish up her milk.

when baby seems to want more milk even she was just fed an hour ago, she worries about over feeding the baby. she consults her best friend to check how much milk should a 3.7kg baby drink. wait, is baby still 3.7kg only?

when baby poops, she analyse the poop and records them down. any changes in colour and texture, she would again consult her best friend IMMEDIATELY if the poop is "normal".

when baby dont poop after/while having her meal (as she usually does. FYI, she is quite talented at sleeping, drinking and pooping all at the same time. so proud of her), she anxiously wait for her next poop.

she frequently checks her for dry skin (a symptom of dehydration) and every little funny noise she makes when she sleeps will send mummy running to her bedside.


sigh. when will mummies be "normal" again?

***

i like the top left photo the best. 

thats why its the largest! hahahaha.. 

okok, i know i am getting a little obsessed but she is growing up too fast!

missing..

the hubs was giving the little girl her 230am diaper change.. btw, this little girl ALWAYS does her first/last big business at around 2-3am.. o.O

since she was in a good mood, he slowly changed her. when he was putting on her diaper, we realised that her umbilical cord was missing!

we searched through her soiled diapers but we could not find it! 

after a frantic find and we resigned to the fact that its lost.

the hubs then continued to burp her and found something hard in her clothes.. lol.. 

the missing umbilical cord.

barely a week and i am already missing her newborn stage! especially her smell. how i wish that is some kind of scratch and smell sticker or something to preserve the sweet smell she had. she is growing up too fast for me!! :(

rosanne's first visit to the doctor.

we took the little girl for her first check up with dr rhonda watts today. she seems to be doing fine except for her jaundice level went up a little (still in the "acceptable" level though) and she still not back to her birth weight. she left the hospital at 3.5kg and was only 3.6kg when dr rhonda weigh her today. =(

the little girl is always falling asleep half way through her feed and refused to be awake no matter what we do. dr rhonda suggested burping her to wake her up but we did and it did not work, AT ALL... hence, dr rhonda asked us to try syringe feed her if every thing else dont work.

so we got some syringe and a can of formula for just in case before we left the hospital. hopefully she will gain some weight soon. i miss her chubby cheeks. =(

anyway, the little girl did not even flinch a bit when they took the blood test for her jaundice. =)

my little 乖寶寶.

***

i also have check up with dr lee today. he checked my wound and commented that i am recovering well. =)

he also removed the stitches and i got scare. 

"WAIT! pain anot!?"

"you want epidural?"

okie, fine. -_-"

us with dr lee. =)

rosanne with her frog prince at 5 days old.

as the clock is fast approaching 11, i am anxious to know how our second night at home with rosanne would be like..

would she still be fast asleep like a burrito? 

or a little terror would appear like last night?


1040 - the little burrito has started stirring...


last night at 11pm, like clockwork, she opened her eyes and made sure we don't close ours till 6.. -_-"


1043 - there are weird noises coming from the little burrito...


every half hour she wants to be fed and after suckling for 5-10mins, she falls asleep and would not be aroused. then she wakes up 30-45 mins later wanting to be fed again... O.O


1048 - the little burrito is frowning..


i did tell the hubs before when she was still in my tummy that she gives daily live performance at 11pm everyday.. at 11, she will start to have a lot of movements - kicks, punches, swimming, etc.. so apparently, even out of my tummy, she is still giving live performance to earn her milk money..


1052 - the little burrito stirs again and her swaddle is becoming loose...


today in the day, we tried our best to keep her awake. but this little girl just wants to sleep. the more noise/sound we make, the sounder she sleeps. sounds familiar? =P

anyway, we tried our best already. hopefully she can sleep for longer periods tonight.


2300 - she is still sleeping!





*update

2311 - she is awake!! #anothersleeplessnight

who knew hospital food can be so yummy!

day1.

breakfast - fish porridge.

i hate porridge! but this is the nicest fish porridge i ever had.

looks very bland but its really tasty. 

no fishy smell at all!

lunch. the black chicken soup is the yummiest. 

got 阿嬤的味道. =)

dinner was fish + vegetable + soup. too yummy that i forgot to take a photo of it..



day2.

breakfast.

lunch.

last dinner. 

the soup is ba kut teh. 

its so nice that me + the hubs were scheming how to get more of that. lol. 

should have told de lee that i want to stay one more day so that i can get to eat more yummy food. hehehe.
anyway i am still glad to be home and in the comfort of my own bed.

before heading home, we took little rosanne (yes, we have decided to name her that. chinese name is still wip) to see her great-grandma.