Hundredth day.

Was looking though and uploading and photoshop-ing the photos i have in my laptop and i found this. i think this taken quite a few cnys ago , when i was still 17-18. Apart from the fact that i was younger, we were happy.. We were one big happy family. =)


It will not be the same anymore and its not the same anymore. People have all changed or should i say, finally revealed their true selves. Some for the better, but the bad turn worse.

In the midst of all these, i am actually lost. I am lost about the meaning of 'family'. I grew up truly believing in what i see, i believed that God & family matters above everything else. When i was 14, i saw the ugly side of life. The first adult i trust & love most, other then my parents, actually i am lost for words to describe what happened. And it seem that theres more than it meets the eye of the person who buys sweets for my every other day after school and watched me grow up. It hurts. What were these people thinking or doing?

I am thankful that God gave me my parents who have been standing behind me and healing me. They might not be able to understand what i am going through or even know that i am hurting inside but their love made me understood that i am not as dirty as i think or feel - i am still theirs no matter what happens and they will always be there no matter how naughty i have been.

I will learn to let go more. Stop hating, for vengeance belongs to Him.




Missing you still, as much as the first.
Some part of me is happy that you are gone.
End of hearing endless selfish arguments which would have break your broken heart.

Unfortunate Endings II.

my chocolate finally met its end.

it din melt.. but i lost it.. i am sorry..

i will always remember my excitement when i first saw you and held you.

and how i choose a nice thick clothing to protect you and just in case you fall.

but you fought with mr.keys in my bag and got scratched. it hurts.

though you became a bit hard on hearing.. i love you.




joop chun.



actually what disgust me is the fact that i might be taking the same bus as my chocolate-kidnapper tomorrow morning.. and who knows what this person has done to my phone.. read all my sms and know my deep dark secrets..... cut my head out and paste them on some funny body...... and i wont know who this evil person is!!! ARGH!!!