Awful.

A box of awfully delicious dark chocolate ice cream.

This is my home..

My home does not feel like my home anymore as playing "host" seems to be getting more and more difficult. Feels like roles have been exchanged and i am in a foreign land. Every now and then, i am being challenged by nonsense of my "guests" and i wonder how long more i have to tolerate.

Went to purchase my dinner earlier and gave the cashier a $5 note. The cashier is not a local but i shant comment further on his nationality.

He asked, "Is this singapore money?"

Puzzled, i answered, "Yah."

The note itself is relatively new, no much creases or tear at all. I further explained that it is an old junk boat series of singapore dollar, but it is still "usable".
*please let me know if old notes are not acceptable anymore.. cus i have not heard/ seen of such news about it.

Still examining the $5 note, the cashier told me that he has not seen such a note in singapore and asked if that is really a singapore dollar note and not ringgit.. WHAT?!

I pointed and said that "SINGAPORE" is printed on the note.

But have no idea whats with the man, he finally said something which i gave up trying to speak further to him. "Sorry but i cant read english" HUH? and insist that i give him singapore dollar that he recognises.

This is my home and yet i cannot do what is not wrong?

I wondered if this is the guy's first week at work or what. How can a cashier not recognise a singapore dollar note? Furthermore how can anyone not know simple english? S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E and M-A-L-A-Y-S-I-A also cant differentiate? This is super duper ridiculous.

Shortly after this incident, another foreign employee threw away a customer 3/4 filled beer into the dustbin!! The customer was just at the stall next to the table to collect his food. At the turn of his back, the cleaner swiftly threw away the bottle. The customer was horrified so was i. If this cleaner has been in-charge of this area, how can he not notice that the customer has not left? There was only a handful of people sitting there anyway. What is this person doing?

Actions, behaviour and service of these people embarrassed me throughly. These people are working at a place where if you were to search on food in singapore on the website, it is sure to appear. What would tourist think of us then? If i am a tourist i would think twice about visiting again.

There is also an increase in incidents of foreigners "misbehaving" in singapore. What are the mindsets of these people? Dont they realised that is not their home and how can they behave however and whatever way they want? I have been abroad before and i know it is not easy being away from home. To fit in, i cannot insist behaving the way i behaved when i am in singapore afterall that is not my "home". It like wearing singlet and flip flop to a black tie event and tell the host, "i wear these at home anyway". A good host might still invite you in but shouldnt the guests dress appropriately to make sure the host is not embarrassed in front of other guest?



ok.. i think i am too emo.. sleep..

Hundredth day.

Was looking though and uploading and photoshop-ing the photos i have in my laptop and i found this. i think this taken quite a few cnys ago , when i was still 17-18. Apart from the fact that i was younger, we were happy.. We were one big happy family. =)


It will not be the same anymore and its not the same anymore. People have all changed or should i say, finally revealed their true selves. Some for the better, but the bad turn worse.

In the midst of all these, i am actually lost. I am lost about the meaning of 'family'. I grew up truly believing in what i see, i believed that God & family matters above everything else. When i was 14, i saw the ugly side of life. The first adult i trust & love most, other then my parents, actually i am lost for words to describe what happened. And it seem that theres more than it meets the eye of the person who buys sweets for my every other day after school and watched me grow up. It hurts. What were these people thinking or doing?

I am thankful that God gave me my parents who have been standing behind me and healing me. They might not be able to understand what i am going through or even know that i am hurting inside but their love made me understood that i am not as dirty as i think or feel - i am still theirs no matter what happens and they will always be there no matter how naughty i have been.

I will learn to let go more. Stop hating, for vengeance belongs to Him.




Missing you still, as much as the first.
Some part of me is happy that you are gone.
End of hearing endless selfish arguments which would have break your broken heart.

Unfortunate Endings II.

my chocolate finally met its end.

it din melt.. but i lost it.. i am sorry..

i will always remember my excitement when i first saw you and held you.

and how i choose a nice thick clothing to protect you and just in case you fall.

but you fought with mr.keys in my bag and got scratched. it hurts.

though you became a bit hard on hearing.. i love you.




joop chun.



actually what disgust me is the fact that i might be taking the same bus as my chocolate-kidnapper tomorrow morning.. and who knows what this person has done to my phone.. read all my sms and know my deep dark secrets..... cut my head out and paste them on some funny body...... and i wont know who this evil person is!!! ARGH!!!

friend n [C]

1. a person whom you know well and whom you like a lot, but usually not a member of your family.
2. a person you know well and regard with affection and trust.
3. a person who knows that you are still stuck in office at 8 without dinner and tries to order mac for you from melbourne.

thankew. i am really touched.




joop chun.

HEY YOU!!

its NOT my fault that your card is lousy ok?

i just had a good hand so was able to win within 2 turns..

my 2 is NOT the biggest and NO ONE else at the table wants to block me..


so you dun scold me selfish and noob and click QUIT!!

cant afford to lose then dont play lah..


GROWL!!

been so busy lately. and yet i still have a lot of things to do.

i have so much to blog about and pictures to post. sigh.

it has been such a two-long-weeks. seems never ending.

can someone please spread some flu or cough to me? fever also can. i want to be sick just for a day. to breathe and take a kit-kat break.